Was the high really worth the pain?

Sometimes that's what I ask myself when I get hyped up about a date that never works out... or one that seems to work out, but you're really just being used for something other than finding "love". Does love even really exist anymore, or do people just like to play ridiculous games with other people's emotions?

I've honestly gotten to the point where I'm just completely apathetic. Why? Because people these days aren't looking for the love you've heard about in storybooks anymore.

We've all heard them... the stories about love triumphant, the girl always finds the man of her dreams and the guy somehow wins over the girl he's always chased. Unfortunately it seems that all of these made up stories about true love and finding your "soulmate" are just that-- stories. Seems to me that they should just be called fairytales or "musings of the helpless romantic".

I have to say that my past relationships have definitely taught me what I do and don't want. The only thing they didn't teach me is the fact that people can be whoever they want to be until you don't give them what they want. That's when the truth comes out. I just wish I could find one person who could prove me wrong... one person that is actually REAL in this world.  Until then, I'm content with daydreaming about my future life.

For now, I'm better off alone. And that's okay.