Changes

It's been brought to my attention that all of my close friends, the ones who are supposed to be the best of the best, feel that I have changed since high school.  Apparently I am not the same person I was before I moved to Greenville and I have changed to the point where no one knows "this person" I've become.  It amazes me that the people who are bringing this to my attention... are some of the worst offenders of change I've ever seen.  Hold on, let's take one step back. Since when is changing such a bad thing?

As we grow older, we change.  Our beliefs change.  Who we are changes.  Especially if you go to a university.  In my experience, it changes you a whole lot.  It broadens your horizons and opens your mind to different ways of living, different walks of life, different people, different cultures.  The way you think starts to change because you become more "liberal" and accepting of all that is different.  You being to be open-minded and experienced-- you enter into the 21st century, people.  Yes, it changes you.  It doesn't necessarily mean that it's a bad thing like people would lead you to believe.  Changes in your life will change who you are whether or not you want them to. 

In my case, change has not been a bad thing.  I'm not sorry about it one bit. I've been through things that have changed me as a person.  I don't like all of the changes that have been made in my life, but there is nothing I can do about that.  They are, however, changes in me that I love and I embrace. This is me, this is who I am, who I was meant to be.  I'm no longer naive, I don't let people walk all over me, I have my own opinion and you're going to know it... but I am not a cruel person, I do not say things about my friends behind their backs that I wouldn't tell them at the right time and place.

Just because I don't fit your ideal description of who you want me to be doesn't mean I am not who I am supposed to be.

Maybe before you start acting like you're Mother Theresa... you should probably make sure that all your laundry is clean.



/End Rant

Happy Ending

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.  Every movie we see, every story we're told, implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule.  But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending, we don't learn how to read the signs.  How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.  And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy... maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over.  Freeing yourself up for something better in the future.  Maybe the happy ending is just moving on or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing that after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope." -Gigi, He's Just Not That Into You

I think this says enough.  I shouldn't even have to explain.  Food for thought.